woken up to a boy in my bed.
I seriously cannot explain how amazing it is to be out of high school. The people at my college amaze me, seriously. Grown people, who actually know what they want in life, are the best to be around. Zero bullshit. All these people have so much substance to them, they all have these amazing stories. I can’t compare. I can’t explain. I’m so happy where I am. I’m so sad that today was our last day in this particular class. I’ve never laughed so much than when I was around these people. Their talents, humor, rawness, everything, is just so amazing.
Today makes me happy for the next coming days. I’m going to Extreme Thing. I’m going to be around great people. I’m going to see some old friends. I get to drive myself, by myself, in my own car. For once, I feel almost like an adult. Not relying on some sketch kid to give me a ride, then struggle on a way to get home. I’m going to take so many pictures. I’m going to have so much fun, I promise myself.
I’ve always wanted you to watch this movie with me! I love it!
keep talking shit about me. It’s so good to hear your support.
I miss my old life.
I miss my old friends.
I miss the lifestyle we all used to live.
I miss parties.
I miss my parties.
I miss my 18th birthday. What a magical night. Everyone that I needed and wanted was there. I couldn’t have asked for more.
I miss Prom. Again, that night was magic. Everyone around me was perfect.
I miss when I was cool, for a little bit.
I miss going to shows.
I miss flirting with random guys at shows.
I miss what used to be my boys. Fuck, they were all so cool. I felt so cool. We were all so cool together. I knew all those boys would take over some day. I’m so proud of where they’re all going in life.
I miss when no one was thinking about college or our future, but just living our lives.
I miss being able to call up my best friend, Kayla, and being able to see her at any second, because we were literally a second apart.
I miss hanging out with my good friend, Brittni. We used to spend so much time together. I miss those days where we did nothing but spend the nights at each other’s houses consecutively. We had so much fun. Good, clean, pure fun. No drama. No boyfriends to take away our attention. I’m bummed that I never see or hear from her anymore.
I miss freshman year. When the original crew came about. And when all the now cool kids weren’t even around.
I miss when we all thought we were so cool cause we had so many friends on Myspace. We were so fucking dumb and we didn’t even care.
I miss the time before I was in a long-term relationship.
I miss you.
I miss us.
I miss the old times.
The good times.
I miss too many things.
Every time I see this girl do her awkward dance, I laugh hysterically.. I’m embarrassed for all of them!
My Speech teacher read my lifestyle from a cup of Turkish Coffee. I hate coffee. But I was really interested in what she was gonna say about me. So I drank this disgusting coffee, and she read the lines on the sides & bottom of my cup. She couldn’t see much, but she did see a seahorse. The seahorse basically represents me, just floating along in life, taking everything day by day, mostly alone.
I guess she was right. I wish she could’ve read more of my cup. I was really intrigued. It inspired me to get more into physic readings and fortune tellers and all that. I really wanna get more in touch with myself and my spirit. Hopefully, I find someone or some place that can show me more about it all.
People think I’m all shy like
But then they get to know me and I’m more like
Missing people! I just want everyone to be around all the time. I don’t like being away from people that I used to have the best times with.